Here in lies my incomplete thoughts & emotions
…since I’ve posted anything so here we go.
Today I realized that the only way for me to be happy is to rid myself of all of the poison in my life. Unfortunately, that poison is like a drug for which I am addicted. I crave the high that it seldom provides and end up feeling empty and alone on the lows. Most time I cannot separate the misery I cause and the misery it causes. Perhaps they are equal. I guess I am wondering the best way to ease the addiction.
In other words, separate myself from my family.
you know that “joke” your friend makes about you and the only problem is that it actually hits home and you sit there and realize that they were probably being serious in an indirect way and covering up their true thoughts by passing it off as a joke and then you just sit there feeling like shit for the entire day
As I lay in bed bloated from the weight of my decisions, I can’t help but wonder if a diet from my wrongdoings is possible? Am I able to stop feeding myself bullshit and spewing lies to friends? I am so scared of letting others see me that I constantly hide behind layers and layers of half-truths and secrets.
The three words one must never hear
Spoken delicately in my side-turned ear
Damaging the power of a gentle embrace
Causing my fragile thoughts to race
The same words once spoken by another
Who proved to expect more from another
Leaving my heart shambled
Your softly spoken words unraveled
I sacrificed my morals
In the wake of a tough decision.
Instead of resurrecting my courage,
I chose to slaughter and bury my self-worth.
What was it all worth?
An almost plunder of my heavily-guarded treasure?
And in return, a quick tidal wave and a swift retreat.